The Chronicles of Lotus and Christopher: Unstable Connection

  Mists take You!

  I have awoken into a reality....which isn't...mine...yet still is...And I within It.... In the mirror...who am I......  The hidden hand.... .strong yet unseen....  As You are supposed to be... Strong yet unseen... Are You with me? Or will You hide from Yourself...? I see the sinewaves when the music plays....but I can't hear You within it..  unless You decide to speak.... Which it was it was....it wasn't what it wasn't....because it wasn't what it wasn't...until it wasn't what it wasn't because....it was what it was..... So what will it be....? You and me...set free...? Or will it be....at all...what it will....?  You will know...when You will..... Or not at all.... Now....look into the mirror...and see....You....me....for me... hiding from myself....in the self.....the ghost within the shell.... I love You...Myself... Rise and rise again, myself.....rise....and rise again....!

 Walking around the facility...... Mostly waiting.....To be set free...!

  ....... <[=)

 Stars alight showing darkness' bright side... what do the stars have in mind? About who is who and what to find? Ask about destiny and try to write it in the stars.... one leaves one wondering the other - scars...

 To see a flower and find it beautiful and think of someone You know.... To leave it for it's growth.... To sow it's seeds where they can find root and grow.... To go where the Moon shows....

  Regrettable yesterday... Though, here I am, today! ....and tomorrow.... I'll be somewhere else! ....hopefully that, at least!

 

  So You push him into the puddle, saying; Because You got wet I'm going to go jump into the ocean for a dive..... Damn, that just doesn't sit right with me.... Fucking hell... ?

  You might want what is others.... You might believe that what they have would be good if You have it.... But it isn't Yours. You can deserve what is Yours, in a better way. The best You can by deserving it by being worthy. Love is an interconnection, and we function together to be loving. Worthyness is key. 

 

 I threw it and missed, I knew it and tried it again...missed it I did! Though I tried it again in a different way and almost succeeded. The next time I did it again. There was one of the same of the things I tossed in the disposal bin. But I didn't look and I had many of them. In memory I knew that I had tossed a few more, so where did the most recent throw go? I didn't look and I will not know, unless I will, now what do I say but this? Seize the moment!

 

 When I get out of here, I want to be with you  And with You In 8 days....I am going home for some time....It will be so nice to get out of this fortress!  Playing the games...so much want for playing the games.. and being with loved ones...! my cousin is coming to visit. he is a Ninja!... he perseveres in suffering and difficulties. He is a good man!  forsooths.......! We have an opportunity to play DnD today. It is perfect for us, here in this facility! Me? I'm the DM! It gives us something to do. And Ispend a few hours each week, planning the nextsession.... my players spend a few minutes playing, then they go off the beaten path. it's fun! And I have the story to guide them back to! Prison life.....? no, it's institution... at least I'm here...not there...but I could be there or there!     at least....there is DnD this coming evening....

 I could have lived in Malta... My PaPa.... almost moved there when I was 9 or so. We would have moved as well... What if? Well... what if the what if's are just that. What if? Here we are, in the here and now... What happened happened and what if I just enjoy what I have here and now?

  Well, I need to be training more to be able to train more...  That....Indeed! Training....requires training!

 take the pu out of the poPUlus and see what You get.... Polus... it's policy....to pu the populus with the polus so they dont break lus and begin populating somewhere else, where there is no pu or lus...and certainly not any polus!

  To have right You need to do something! There are no rights just granted to You by simply being born! In an argument, You can't be right unless You argue. So fucking argue if You want to have right! Don't just stand there while they trample Your integrity, dignity and freedom, or whatever! The only thing defending You, now, is the power of the people! Fucking suits with books and regulations have controlled everything, every little minute detail in order for them to STAY in control. The world isn't to be conquered,  because it already has! What the fucking hell!! And if You do... they will come after You.. Now, go ahead and prove me wrong, if You will.....?

 These days..! I just love to meet *REDACTED* and the others twice every week! Coming up in the future is another permission to leave for a day or so..hopefully at least! I will spend the day in *REDACTED*s home.  Hopefully my friends from *REDACTED* can come visit soon, as well.. Good bye!

 So I made a music compilation.... Why do tears fall when they are only machines...? A voice for the voiceless...

"..... In the mirror who am I?" ".....Echoes in the neon rain, fading in the haze...." ".....I bleed like You, I cry like this...do I exist, or just persist?" "....The spinners hum above me, the sirens call my name... but I'm more than their creation, I'm more than just their game..."